My World, Falling Apart

September 11, 2001 was a day I will never forget, where I was and what I was doing. I was junior in high school sitting in home economics class when the loud speaker came on overhead to inform myself and fellow classmates that our country was under attack! Our world has never been the same since. Every year thousands of people I didn't even know are honored, and will continue to be honored and remembered.


September 11, 2012 yet another day I will never forget what I was doing. . .that evening as I pulled into my driveway, my dad calls me. He had surgery that friday just before and I knew he had a follow up appt that day, but the news I ws about to hear was so overwhelming! I answered the phone to hear my dads voice. He said he went to the doctors appt and that his biopsy results were back which were positive for CANCER!!! MY DAD HAS CANCER!!! I didn't even know what to say, my heart hurt, my stomach and head were spinning! My dad kept his cool (like always) and didn't have many answers other than they were coming down here to see an oncologist.

After hanging up the phone, my frustration, anger, sadness, confusion, and heartache came through! My whole world felt like it was falling apart. My Dad, Mom, Sister & I went to IU Hospital yesterday for answers, we really didn't get any, but have moved forward in the direction to answers. We all spent the day at the hospital while my Dad underwent a CT scan to make sure this cancer doesn't or hasn't spread to his lungs and a MRI to make sure the surgery my Dad had had gotten all of the cancer cells from his body. We are now waiting on results which should come back by the end of the week. I pray every night that things will turn out positive and that myself and the rest of our family can "keep it together" for my Dad, he needs all the support we can give him! I LOVE YOU DAD!! And you'll pull through this, and we'll be right beside you all the way!!!

 

How am I doing?

It's may which means that this yr is almost half way over!!! I really don't know where time goes to sometimes. But I wanted to recapped my New Years resolutions, so here goes. . . . .

*I still need to work on my stubbornness and giving my opinion when it is needed, not when I want to give it!
*Want to save at least $1500, we have saved only $250, in the next six months I have a ton of saving to catch up on!
*Still working on losing 60lbs, but I do work out mon-fri for 45mins-1hr, and i have lost approx 7lbs but have lost more inches than anything! I also have a gym buddy (which helps alot). Also gio and I are going to be taking an evening walk after dinner every night (: KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!
*Me making dinner twice per wk started out nicely, and then kinda drifted, but in my own defense, (sometimes) when it would be my night to cook (and i got something i could make) gio ended up making it instead, and then tells me "you don't have to cook, i can do it, i like to make dinner for you" and there it is folks, i just say ok and it's over, i didn't make dinner. Let me change this to dinner once per wk and see how that goes. (:
*An out of state trip, not going to happen this yr, i've pleated with gio about this, and it's not gonna happen, so i feel i should just give up and begin to play for next yr!
*Date night once per month, ha, we've been so busy doing things for the house we've been calling our weekly friday night visit to lowe's our date night :D so i guess that counts.
*Church every sunday, needs to begin again! no excuse, I really don't mind going, it's just I'm to lazy to get up and get going :(
*Time on the computer has seemed to slow down, i even gave up facebook and twitter for lent (: it was really kinda sad how much time i was online, doing NOTHING!! KUDOS to me! (:
*Talking with my parents weekly is going pretty well (: i just need to make sure to not talk so much about myself (i notice i do this alot), and also i need to start calling my grandparents more often, they aren't going to be here forever! :(
*A solo day, hasn't happened, maybe this next month will be better.

So overall it seems to be down the middle, not an epic fail, but by no means a "way to go" either. I need to continue to work on the above, self improvement is always worth the time and effort.

Short and Bittersweet.

Goooooood Morning! :)

it's already shaping out to be a day spent in bed with some comfy cloths on, girly movies, coffee, and the windows open to hear the rain make it's entrance. buuuut, i've got things to do today, so a raincheck for today will have to suffice.
i continue to pray for my dad (he's needing surgery for a leg tumor) for a safe recovery and my grandma (who's got cancer and dying) whos more brave than i. and for myself to be strong.

Good Things Come to Those Who Wait

We are finally in our new home, and it's beautiful!  March 27th was a very long day, thats for sure! lol. But it'll be the last long day Gio and I have like that, as we don't plan on moving ever again (: Our new house is beautiful and I can't wait to begin making it a home!

Echo is still adjusting, but overall I think she's gonna love it here (: She's still exploring and finding new ways to give us heart attacks! (we've "lost" her at least half a dozen times already! little stinker ;)

Gio and I have both talked with our parents, who are all very happy for us, and we've had our first guests also, David and Naomi, they helped us move. We're having our first cookout tomorrow with Izaak and Erica, and Tim from Gio's work! Too excited! We've had our first home cooked meal after what seemed like tons of eating out (gross!), and I cooked! (: We had lemon chicken with rice and broccoli. 
It's been a long haul, we signed papers in July 2011 and have watched our slab turn into a structure, and the structure into a house, and now we have the rest of our lives to turn our house into a home.

 God has really looked out for me, for Gio and I, he really truly has, and We are so appreciative of the life he has given us! He has given us some rough/hard times. But He's helped us pull through, and shown us how wonderful our lives can and will be. He has given us true strength and happiness with eachother. We now know and understand that We are good people and deserve to have happiness, good health, and prosperity. 

As I sit here, in my new home, I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of happiness and pride! I can't ever say it enough, how BLESSED i am!

All Things Love

Day 6

today is valentines day! and i have so much {{Love}} for so many different reasons, it was hard to narrow it down to just one for the past couple of days (: 

but todays {{Love}} is the most obvious. lol. i {{Love}} my one and only, my best friend, my everything, my husband, Giovanni Anadom Thieme! i {{Love}} him for the man he was 12yrs ago when we met. i {{Love}} him for the man he is today. and i know i'll {{Love}} him for the man he will continue to become! i {{Love}} him for supporting me, through it all. i {{Love}} that he wants the best for me, for us. i {{Love}} that he always wants me to be happy and will go to no end to make sure i am. i {{Love}} the memories we've made together and i {{Love}} the memories that are going to be made! i {{Love}} that we laugh together, and sometimes laugh so hard we cry! i {{Love}} his smile, it's heart melting :) i {{Love}} that he is truly a good person. i {{Love}} that he has such a caring heart, and would do anything for anyone, anytime. i {{Love}} that he is comfortable enough to be himself, he hides nothing from me! (and i mean nothing) lol. i {{Love}} that he'll sit and watch a chick flick with me. i {{Love}} that we share a common goal in life. i {{Love}} that he values me, as a woman, as his wife, as his best friend! i {{Love}} that we can act like such fools together! i {{Love}} the joy and smiles he brings to my life. i {{Love}} that he chose me to spend the rest of his life with, to call his wife!

I {{Love}} Gio for so much more than could be put into words! I {{Love}} him whole heartedly and I couldn't imagine my life without him by my side! The  struggles we've been through, the triumphs we've had make me {{Love}} our life together. I feel so honored, so blessed, to have a {{Love}} like ours to show to the world!

I {{LOVE}} YOU, Giovanni 

yesterday, today, tomorrow, always and forever!

xoxo

I wish to belong to you, I’ll be the one you’re looking for 

and we’ll be the one heaven’s searching for!

For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart.

It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.
Judy Garland

My Smiles

so much brings a smile to my face, and here is what has made me smile lately. 

~my husband, even when i'm not is the best of moods his silliness always takes away the worst of feelings :D he brings the most joy, laughter, and life to me and i love him so much more than he may ever know because of it! his very own smile makes my heart melt. its such an additive smile, you can't help but smile back at him. <3

~echo, whenever i sit in our recliner and throw my blanket over me, she hurries over to sit on my lap to love on her :) 

~our new home, every weekend we go to see the house and the progress from week to week. many pictures are taken and move in date is closer and closer!! :D

~my favorite drinks: iced tea (so refreshing) & coffee (love my morning cup)

~memories (the good & the not so good), as we are preparing to move from our first place in indy to our new home, the wonderful memories we have made since moving down here flood my brain. here are a few: 

2008: our move from kendallville to indianapolis

2008: our wedding

our marriage license 7.12.08

2008: gio & i living off of unemployment for months, and still making it work

2008: starting college for medical assisting

2009: gio getting temporary work after being laid off

2009: gio being hired on full time to a job

2009: graduation from college, and landing a job a week later

2009: filling for bankruptcy

2009: gio's grandpa richard passing

2010: short weekend trip to cincinnati

2010: our first and second concert ever together!! Tom Petty & then John Mayer

2010: we held our first thanksgiving dinner for my family, success!

our homeade thanksgiving pies, pumpkin & pecan

2011: losing one of our immediate family members, lucca our male cat. 

buddy man lucca, on his last day

2011: buying our first home, & watching it be built from the ground up!

the lot we chose #102

gio & i as of today in our house, not quite finished

2011: i got to witness one of lifes greatest gifts, birth. in may i witnessed a vaginal birth to a healthy baby girl, hayley and in december a cesarean to another healthy baby girl, rebecca!

~my many blessings that i have and can't even count, bring the biggest smile to my face, can't believe i've been through the things i've put myself through and come out such a strong woman!

~my career, i have good and bad days at my job, just like everyone else. the only difference i like what i do, and i'm good at what i do, and my co-workers, and bosses respect me and my work ethic!

~mostly my very own life has brought such a smile to my face. i haven't lived perfectly, but everything that has happened to me i understand it has been for a reason. and for that reason i can only think of the whole and be proud of the person i am, and the goals i have for myself. i can't believe how lucky i am of a person, to have done the things i've done and still have such success and greatness in my life!

Not so Easy

I am battling with my heart! Here's the shortened story. . . 

A few years back my oldest cousin Katie was diagnosed with a kidney disease. And she's been dealing with this ever since. Now when I first heard of this news, it brought tears to my eyes. How horrible for Katie, Jason, and Cheyanne! I felt so sad for them! And the big question for the family was, where to go from that point? Questions got answered, but obviously not the best news was given. Early on, the word transplant came up, but might not be necessary if Katie could make some lifestyle changes. She did very much try and was unsuccessful.

Within the last year, Katie was given the news that she will need a kidney transplant to become healthy again! When this was first mentioned I considered donating! I really hadn't put much thought into it but when I brought it up with Gio, he was not in favor. The subject was dropped, nothing more was said about it, unless we got updates from my family. 

Last night I was talking with my mom, and the donating subject was brought up. Katie and I share type O blood! One of the first things tested is to see if blood types match. So my mom talked with me about it a little more, and that I might want to consider looking into testing. You ask, what about her mom or husband. . .neither can donate, my aunt, her mom is a borderline diabetic, and her husband and she don't share the same blood type, so they are out of the question. I told my mom how I'd love to help, how I even tossed the idea up the first time we all heard about this. I told her that I felt that donating is not an easy thing for me to just say YES to. I want to talk with a doctor about it. I need to talk with Gio about it. And what if I did donate and then the only kidney I had failed, what would happen to me then? What if the surgery was unsucessful? I have so many questions, it's just not an easy decision. But I told my mom I would at least give blood, but I would need to look into this donation a bit more. 

I'm torn, I want to help, I really do! I think about what if donation is not for me at this time, but then if it becomes to late how guilty I would feeling knowing I could have at least looked into it more, that I might have been able to help and was to selfish not to! I don't want to see my cousin in pain, I want to see her live a long healthy life. I want her to see her only child grow old. I want to see her grow old! But I also want to do what's best for me! I just can't find the confidence to say YES. When I think about how hard her life has become, how her daughter and husband could be without her it breaks my heart. 

So today at work, I asked the doctor I work for if she had any insight on how this transplant deal works or if she knew of someone I could at least get some of my questions answered. She gave me a name, and I'd like the plan to be for Gio and I to go and talk with the Nephrologist. Seeing how I am unsure of what to do, I don't think I will talk with Katie about this until I know in my heart what's best for me, and what's best for Gio and I as a couple.

 I guess this is the first step, to get questions answered, to help try and build up my confidence. To listen to my heart!